I don’t know about all of you, but I’m still trying to process how it’s already December. I’m still stuck mentally in like June or July. This has been quite a year that’s for sure. The longest, fastest year at that.
But in all honesty, I’m glad it’s gone by fast. It’s been like 5 years wrapped into one and I’m sure ready for this to be over.
Thinking back on everything that’s happened, I’m very impressed with how I haven’t had many major meltdowns since March, aside from maybe one 2 months ago.
I’ve been calm and not calm at the same time dealing with everything that happens. Yes, I do stumble emotionally, but who doesn’t? I mean after all we are human and are entitled to falter right?
To add to that, I’m also quite impressed with how I’ve been able to handle the changes that have happened at alarming rates all year. Well, aside from when it all started, seeing as it was new for everyone and stressful to handle getting used too.
Now it’s been, oh what changes are going to happen this time? Or, I may not like this change but it is what it is at this point. Or the ever infamous line, when will this all be over?!
At least those three are very common at my job, and I know that last one is definitely something everyone is feeling. So I know that I’m not alone there.
What I do feel is that some people don’t seem to understand is how something on this grand of a scale can be very overwhelming for those on the spectrum.
This whole year has been rough for everyone, with kids having to be virtual for school, to parents having to teach, work, and parent all in one, and so much more.
But those with mental health issues, as well as disabilities, have been greater risks this year for the changes affecting their mentality.
As far as mental health goes for me, I’ve had my ups and downs, but I’ve been one who’s life really hasn’t changed much outside of having to wear PPE and getting tested each week, currently twice right now as an uptick has been going on in my area.
I’ve definitely been fortunate to be in that circumstance, as I know others haven’t and that is very much a hard adjustment. And it’s valid to feel those ways as it’s been a year for everyone, even though each person’s story wi vary.
But the thing that shocks me most is that my autism has been less present this year than it has been in past years. Which to me seems weird, as something of this caliber would normally make it hard.
I haven’t been as sensory ridden from everything going on. I haven’t been overwhelmed by the changes taking place every week. Or every day depending on where you live. I’ve taken on each change as an oh this is being added now? What’s next?
Which that’s a huge change for me since the beginning, as when this all started I couldn’t deal with any of it.
But then again, I was also dealing with the attempt of healing from a break-up at the beginning of the year so emotions were already on high.
It seems so weird how much in such a short time has changed that until you sit and think about, you don’t realize it. Maybe this year was meant for this purpose. But no one really knows until they go forward on this path.