The last few months with work I’ve been experiencing some pretty hardcore burnout. It hasn’t been fun to say the least but at the same time, being so short-staffed, there really isn’t much of an alternative but to step up and do what’s necessary.
But at what cost?
I realized this weekend that this was a topic I wanted to talk about. About what burnout is and how those who are autistic, like myself, experience this.
I may have already talked about this but I will definitely do so again because it’s a very common thing among people on the spectrum.
Burnout is exhaustion of physical or emotional strength or motivation usually as a result of prolonged stress or frustration.
This is something that a lot of people I know struggle with on regular basis and is very common in the world.
Autism is a neurological disorder that causes the person dealing with it to struggle with processing the world around them.
Some examples would be dealing with social interactions, dealing with large crowds, and overwhelming noises. But something to keep in mind is, even though these are just examples, every person on the spectrum is different and what may bother one person may not bother another.
Now this is where burnout and autism come into play. People with autism, more often than not, don’t know there limits when it comes to certain things. For me, it’s the ability to not overworked myself while at work.
Now combine the definition of burnout and the autistic brain together and you have a complete disaster waiting to happen.
I’m sure you all will agree than burnout definitely is something that can build up overtime and can be very draining when it finally catches up with you.
Well, for me being on the spectrum and having burnout, plus factoring in that I do what’s called masking, which is hiding my autism from most people, it’s extremely hard. Most of the time I don’t register that I’m on the edge of burnout until I reach my breaking point.
This is due to the fact that not only do I struggle processing the world around me, I also struggle with processing my emotions and regulating them.
Until the last couple years, I used to be terrible about being able to handle when I’m at my breaking point. Lately, I’ve been more in tune with when I’ve been close and knowing when enough is enough.
And honestly, to most that’s a normal thing people learn eventually. To me, it’s an amazing accomplishment that I’m able to break down the barrier of having a harder time of knowing how to handle my emotions.
For me, I’m very proud I’m able to recognize my limits now. It’s something I never thought I’d manage let alone be able to talk about at all.
Yes, I’ve struggled with it all and it’s been hard. But I was put in this situation to be able to talk about what I deal with in hopes of having the inspiration for others to know that there is hope. There is a will and a way, even if it takes people longer than others to get there.