Over the course of the last couple months, things have definitely been a little too chaotic. Not just because of the pandemic and work, but my mentality has taken a huge hit.

Unfortunately, I haven’t been able to see my therapist lately because I believe she had her twins so it’s been rough to try and adjust to not having that.

Since I haven’t been able to see my therapist, I’ve had a lot of doubt with my mental health. My anxiety has been through the roof, as well as a couple other issues I deal with lately. My brain can’t seem to focus lately and it’s been affecting my sleep.

I can’t seem to handle things the way they are anymore and I’m very doubtful of who I am as a friend to others. I feel like I’m failing people as a friend and I don’t like it. I can’t seem to be able to snap out of it.

Now, I’m not saying this for pity or sympathy. I say this as a way for those to know that I am human and I do struggle. I know there’s a light at the end of the tunnel, but getting there is hard when doubt is always present.

I just hope that day comes sooner rather than later.

One day it will get better, right?

I guess the positivity is all I am able to handle right now without feeling guilty over it.

But to answer the question, it will. One day it will.

This has definitely been a trying year for everyone. But we can and will get through it.

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