I wish I could fully explain how things have been the last couple days, but putting together words to describe a mental fog is hard.
Anxiety has been making me feel different lately and today has been the hardest of the week.
I wish I could fully say what the true cause of it has been, but it would be a session of releasing stuff I’m not sure I can talk about right now.
And that’s what makes all of this hard. Knowing I’m not able to talk about something that I feel needs to be known but knowing it would make things worse for me in doing so.
Knowing this, it causes some hard times with depression creeping in as well.
Today I felt out of sorts. Out of sorts in the sense that I didn’t feel right while working today. Out of sorts in the sense that I felt like I was disconnected from people but still semi-connected.
And sadly, that’s the best explanation I can give you and I just hope it’s sensible enough to understand.
I know things can happen and I know it’s going to get better, but in the process of dealing with it, it’s like a standstill while time also seems to move fast.
A weird feeling, but nonetheless real.
Hopefully you all are doing good with this coronavirus stuff going on and you all are staying safe. I know I’m ready for it to be done. Hopefully it comes sooner rather than later and life can get back to normal, which I’m ready for.
Keep staying safe everyone!